ok so i've managed to cut the tears down to just once a day, instead of both morning and night. i'm hoping soon they will just cease altogether. i've been through this exact same thing exactly a year ago, so i already know what to expect.

sometimes loving someone isn't enough to make it work.

i never thought i would see the day this all came together like this for me. never. i'm so scared something is going to happen to take everything away just as suddenly as it came to me. day by day, i guess. day by day.

sometimes it is utterly impossible to ignore what fate repeatedly throws in your face time and time again.

i can't believe this is happening...

it is impossible to study for your LSATS when james franco is sitting directly across from you and giving you come-hither smiles.

today i went to the gym like an hour later than i normally do. and was pretty much stunned to find every single gorgeous guy from SC apparently also goes to the gym at that hour... best workout ever.

i am an old lady.

so i've been back in LA for all of 4 days and i already have a date for thursday night. maybe i WILL get over mr. doctor after all...

i don't hate him. i'm not angry or upset with him. i'm a little sad, a little hurt, a little embarrassed. but i know i can stop caring now, i can stop reserving that part of my heart for him, i can stop holding onto memories that won't relive themselves. i'm not even going to lie to myself and think about it like HE lost ME. i'm not going to build ( Read more... )

the past four months, my life has been on pause. as soon as the wheels of the plane touch ground tomorrow evening, i can press the play button again. i can't wait to feel happy again.

but first, black out time.