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aoi is waiting...

The apartment came furnished but the decorations were a bit tacky, a bit too old-fashioned for my taste. I won't be living here all the time I suppose...but it won't do to have the flowery wallpaper and dowdy carpets ( Read more... )

They’re here again…those dreams. How can I make them go away? My meds…they always manage to keep them away for a while…

My hands has stopped shaking…they really do work. I don’t need sleep now…so the dreams can’t come.

I saw Yoshiki today. I saw him standing outside the club, looking stunning in his simple blouse and slacks. He is 42 this year, his birthday is on November 20th…a Scorpio…hmm…fiery, passionate, mysterious… He used to be a host at Moonlight Havana. He started working there when he was a teenager and when the owner died, he passed on the club to ( Read more... )

I’m thinking about him again. I can’t get those images of him behind me, his hands running over my bare skin, his hot lips against my own…that smug look of his as if he has won. I want to go back to Moonlight Havana and wipe that look away from his face…I want to feel his hands on me again…his lips…

Hmph…even his cruel words are sweet to my ears…

I used to have a little kitty when I was small. She was black in colour with white fluffy paws…I used to love squeezing those paws when she’s sleeping. I called her ‘Kuro-chan’. She’d sleep with me on my bed, purring softly, with her whiskers twitching once in a while ( Read more... )

(after the incident with Yoshiki)

How could he do that to me?! I’ve been feeling sexually frustrated since I came back from the club. I know what he’s trying to do…if he thinks he can get rid of me like this, he is seriously mistaken.

I still haven’t come up with my next step but I’m not going to give up.

Anyway, the house is unexpectedly crowded ( Read more... )