i realize that ( Read more... )

so. recent events ( Read more... )

frustration.

frustration.

finals are over, christmas break is now ( Read more... )

i feel so... unhappy at this present moment, i can't even describe it. the rum aint helping much at all. anyway. i don't know why this night has such a bad effect on me... it was just babysitting for god's sake. but it was a terrible night. and my stomach hurt like i was going to throw up ( Read more... )

I CAN'T SLEEP ( Read more... )

yknow ( Read more... )

i think my life fluctuates between way too busy and extremely boring.

it's stuck at boring right now. i think it's just the weekend.

i spent my weekend in Plain... part of my weekend anyway. and it was really nice. the weather was decent, no rain there, a little cold though. we walked all over the place and saw where the forest fire started. we watched trains (yeah, my dad was there, go figure) and i threw rocks in the river with a little 3 year old named joe ( Read more... )

yeah. so i am not annoyed now, i guess i was just feeling that old feeling that most girls probably feel eventually, right. or something. i don't really know. i just don't like that it made me feel annoyed at all because that's not okay with me.. in fact... i shouldn't have even been checking up. i know, i know. i'm done lecturing myself now.