well its been a long time since i've wrote..

I leave for the Army next month. I'm excited. I moved back to Tennessee 4 days ago. I miss all my friends up there, especially Shane and Shannon. I'm going to miss everyone when I get into the Army. I dont know what else to write right now, I'll probably post poems later or something. I'll try to update ( Read more... )

RIP MYIKO

I love you so much. i dont know why you did it. But all I know is that I cried so much for you. I miss you so much. I know we wasn't all that close, but you were my friend.. It is so hard to even go to school now. You were so beautiful, and so happy. Theres more to why you did it then I know. I just want one more conversation with you, ( Read more... )

Alright, its been a while since I've updated. A lot has happened so this will be kind of long.

I'll start with.. I have joined the Army. I leave for basic on July 14th, 2005. I go to Tennessee June 5th, the day I graduate, to visit my family before I go. I'm going in to be a Multi-Channel Transmission Systems Operator Maintainer. *I fix radios, ( Read more... )

All the lonely nights,
Laying in my bed,
Always reminnising,
About all the things you said!

I can't help but to wonder
how it would be
If you were here,
And still loving me!

I still dont understand
Why you had to leave,
Left me here in awe,
Left me here to grieve!

My wounds have become scars,
Scars are what you've made,
I'm finally done,
I'm putting down the ( Read more... )

fuk this

fuk yall

I'm about to just say fuk it and move back to TN right now..

dont know how much more i can take

from my house, from "friends", from ex's....

Amanda

Well, today I'm not so depressed...

Kinda sad... Only a few people know why...

ah well... fuk it, what can ya do???

I love my lil sister.. shes so kute..
she loves drawing pictures for me...

I was looking through the internet today....

theres so much shit you can find online...

well yeah, I was looking, and I found a bunch of my friends from TN.... ( Read more... )

FUK FUK FUK...

HOW OFTEN DO YOU HATE YOUR LIFE SO FUKING BAD, THAT YOU JUST WANT TO DIE!?!?!

FUKFUKFUKFUK

I'M SINGLE................................. AGAIN...........

JIM CANT GET HIS TRANSPLANT
IF YOU DONT KNOW ME, THEN DONT ASK ABOUT THE LAST ONE!!!*

FUKFUKFUKFUK.....

I SAID BYE TO MY BEST FRIEND!!!

FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK

NO, I DONT WANT TO DIE... ( Read more... )

Well, yeah ... this week we've had 1 1/2 days of school. Tuesday was a snow day, and today was a 1/2 day.. I'm hoping we dont have school tomorrow. I'm not going on Friday, because Jim gets his transplant tomorrow.. oh hell I'm scared... fuk..

*i need comfort*

I'm so happy now. I was just thinking about Matt.. I might get to see him today!! yay ( Read more... )

Well, this weekend pretty much sucks.. just like every weekend.. I dont do anything, still havent seen Matt... but yeah, whats new??

I'm getting money from my momma soon, so I guess that might help me out. I have so much shit to pay for for school.. I hate being a senior without parents.. It kinda sucks.. I need like $300 for school... I need to ( Read more... )

Well, today was the first day I've ever been to Chucky Cheese. Today is also my lil brothers 6th bday. We had so much fun... lots of pizza... 2,100 tickets..ps2...games...
the only game system we dont have now is a game cube... so were doing good...

I might get to see Matt this weekend which would be great!! i miss him so much!! i really do... but ( Read more... )