fuckity fuck fuck.. first day home from the hospital and shits already blowing up in my face. I can't talk to anyone, everyones flipping out on me, but I really don't care. I wish I was back on that hospital dead, with the strength to pull the plug on myself.

Omfg.. I think I'm going to cry.. Not.. I stopped crying hours ago.. And even then it wasn't tears of what should be. It was tears of the cover.. What everyone else sees. Inside.. I feel like this vortex is slowly expanding, consuming, filling, devowering all that remains of hope, happiness, and love inside. I feel that tomorrow is today, and ( Read more... )

Here we sit, talking on the phone, and all I want to do is cry. How can I be so sad when I have this great guy who cares so much yet can be so harsh? He tells me this and he tells me that, then takes it all back. I don't know what to do. Everything I've ever thought, can be turned over to this one single mortal hand, then ripped horribly apart. I'm ( Read more... )

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An Honorary
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Majoring in
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I sit behind my electronic screen.. Eyes dead to the world.. I'm so scared of what to do.. I'm agry at everything.. confusion and self-loathing.. Unlike anything felt before. I hear the words that you say, but as they cut into my heart, I realize I don't care, I've come to expect this from you. Now I look at my life, wonder if I even know what love ( Read more... )

So its 3:30 am here on Saturday, 27 day of November in the year 2004 of our lordess Artemis, and I'm bored off my ass. Found out some shit that, while I'm not all to surprised came up/happened, I'm still a litle shocked and weary. I feel like.. If I try to speak my mind, I'll be saying to much and taking control, but I don't want to lay back so ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do.. All I can think about is how to save him.. How to bring him out of this depression he's in.. He's been nothing but good to me, yet I can't seem to return it.. I love him more then anything.. And I don't know how I can let this happen to him.. Why I can't just.. Make it all better ( Read more... )

Lol.. Just spamming till I get this figured out.. I'm pretty frickin' lost.. Oh well. XD Time to spam some more..

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