I am so tired of your consistent whining. It's it above obnoxious. The calls and texts aren't going to change what happened that day. I have told you time and again that you can't backtrack... once something has been said out loud it hangs in the air for you to see, hear, and study. Going backwards on that statement doesn't void it out, it only ( Read more... )

There is only so long I can bite this wicked tongue. I can hurt your feelings, the digs are easy and your relentless backtracking makes it only easier to rub the salt in the wound that is your inflated ego. Stop making it so difficult to want to be around you please. You are driving a wedge that I won't be able to mend, hard as I may try. There ( Read more... )

Damn it John... I thought I would check on this old dusty journal and move on. Now I love it. I love seeing how as little as four years ago I was unstable and emotional. But what is really crazy to see, is how I have in writing the over-exaggeration of my idea of love and how the object of my affection was the man I love and married ( Read more... )

I feel like I haven't been on here in 1000 years. Driving home today a guy called over to me at a red light to politely tell me that he thought I was beautiful and asked if I was taken. I told him I was, but it was a flattering compliment non the less, since compliments grow scarse once comfort sets in.

I'm wide awake, it's morning.

What have I done?

i am always here and never leaving. so why is everyone always leaving me? i just had to go tonite, nothing rang true and i was done. i'm over it. just wish i felt a little better with myself. and the dawn comes as if nothing has happend, and i awake same as the dawn...

I spent the majority of Friday night/Saturday morning vomiting every half hour. This was not fun. I started the day dehydrated and dry heaving. Nick thinks it's because I drank too much on Friday. But today is Sunday, and my stomach still hurts and I never felt hungover in anyway. I have to work tomorrow night so I hope I feel better when I get up ( Read more... )

I'm going to Paris when I turn 23. Be there or be square!

is it weird that sometimes i miss the miserable lonely life i used to have?

"The rules were real that day I wore a vest."

~ "because that vest was disgusting!"