ok it's been a while since i wrote in here, but my puters been fucked 4 the longest time. i think i finaly got it running half ass right! i hope it stays that way! i also got a job... blah, so i haven't had time really. but i miss all my friends!!! i hear stef had her baby!! yay!!! i miss her mostest!!! i want to talk to her, but i have a feeling ( Read more... )

i really need to find myself something better to do with my time then sit at this broke ass computer all the time. if i'm not taking care of my lil guy i'm siting in front of this damn thing.Does anyone ever read my entrys? i hardly ever get comments, but i guess that's not really why i'm writing in here now is it. i guess i write in here insted of ( Read more... )

ok... so i finaly got to talk to him! 1st time since i gave birth to his son! It was very strange to hear his voice! I was shaking the entire time i was talking to him, trying hard not to let him hear it in my voice! also trying hard not to go off on him or cry or anything. I held back all emotion except kinda chipper and happy tone. Like life is ( Read more... )

I have no idea what an angst is but i guess mines tastes like strawberrys, which is ok cause i like strawberrys!:D i donno how accurate it is though, but it all sounds good ( Read more... )

That last touch shouldn't have ended.
I yearn and long for just one more.
My heart can not be mended.
It is broken and sore.

Your face, so soft and sweet.
Reminding myself I cry.

When will we meet again?

One more~
That's not much!
My heart longs for one last touch!!!

this horrible feeling has been with me all day. i've been thinking all about what it means that "he" now has someone els pregnant and that he's going to marry her. It's driving me mad! it means that my son is now going to be a big brother and have a sibleing. i don't really like the thought of that. it also means that in reality my son will also ( Read more... )

well i just got the latest news on "him". He got his dike girlfriend pregnant and he's going to marry her! her baby that she had from someone els is calling him daddy.Aint that some crazy shit! i'm going nutty, so i really can't write right now! i hurt like hell!!!

okay...yeah so it's been a while, but i never know how to straighten out my thoughts in my head let alone write them down. so hear it goes... probably just another pathetic attempt. He haunts me every night! every single night!And breaks my heart all over again without even knowing it! with out even knowing anything about me or his son.he doesn't ( Read more... )

well it's been a while since i wrote in here, i guess i'm trying to keep myself from drifting back off into the past and talking about "him" because i got to get it through my head that he is the past not my future like i once though. my lil guys my future now!! and i've been busy with him... i got his lil winky wacked (circumsision) a week ago and ( Read more... )

everyone that lives here has left for a week. leaving me and my lil guy by ourselves. it's kinda nice. I haven't been all by myself for a long time, there is always someone around. This is also the week Jake (baby's daddy) was suppose to come visit his son for the 1st time, but surprize surprize... he's not here and i still haven't heard from him ( Read more... )