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Bad Weeksss
It's been an up and down couple of weeks. I've been struggling. Downtrodden. And it's been a month since I last checked in here. Right now I'm sitting here typing away, waiting for my car to be serviced. It's been a month since we lost Bowie. That week was awful. After Bowie, it was Alan Rickman, and then Dan Haggerty. Three superstars that were ( Read more... ) -
Put on Your Red Shoes and Dance the Blues
I don't want to live in a world without my Goblin King ( Read more... ) -
Can you feel the thunder that's breaking?
Have you ever woken up from a dream that seem so real to you you weren't quite sure if it happened or not? I had one very recently that was just like that where you actually felt it so deeply and it seemed so real that you actually experienced the physicalness of it. I remember my dreams sometimes with great, vivid detail and what follows below is ( Read more... ) -
Five Essessssss
I’m frustrated right now, LJ. We had a enforced time off this week, in addition to the last 5 days off. This is unusual, unexpected, and even the company wasn’t sure who was and wasn’t working this week. Turns out I was one of the lucky ones that scored the week off. I’ve never had this much time off at once around the holidays. Sage has to ( Read more... ) -
It's oh so quiet
"Every Christmas is last Christmas" - Clara Oswald (Doctor Who ( Read more... ) -
Fade away
Work sucked the suck last night. So much so I killed the bottle of wine (14 Hands Merlot that was recommended by an old friend) after I returned home amped up. Following some of the snarky email trails this morning, it was a clear indication that no one was happy with my performance of last night. But when your supposed team of 8 leaves you 16 ( Read more... ) -
A feeling so vivid....
My mind seems to be in a perpetual whirlwind of emotion today. I'm on the cusp of anxiety, depression, and tears. It is that time of year for all of these types of emotions especially when you have lost so much. I am not the only one feeling this way. My Facebook wall is filled with people having the same emotions. As a people we need to be a ( Read more... ) -
Like a lightning bolt
My mind races with thoughts and words today. And it's a jumble. I've been back through a lot of my history here and some things are totally cringe-worthy. Despite that, I stand by all of the words. Soul/Cee told me in a comment 8 years back that I still needed to write regardless. He said if I don't feed it, then it's going to feed on me. Well, ( Read more... ) -
So When Do You Sleep?
Random rambling post starts in 3...2...1 ( Read more... ) -
Not Phoenix 2.0
And since someone asked in an email, no, Crush is not Phoenix 2.0. I suppose I should talk a bit about that. It was one reason I left and exited out of LiveJournal eight years ago. I worked with Phoenix but he worked the shift opposite mine. Phoenix was my drug. Plain and simple. The connection between us was mind blowing. Looking back, it's ( Read more... )