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[amberfairy]

i wish i got along with people my own age even half as well as i get along with 11 year old girls at work :(

i feel like such a failure.

i don't know why i'm so scared again... but i want it to go away. i need it to go away.

Comments

[eternallyours]

Younger people are easier to get along with because they are naive and usually look up to us older folk! LOL People your own age can be real idiots and I don't blame you for not being able to get along with many of them... I wish you weren't so sad though. I wish you could find nice people, like you, to spend your time with!
::hugs::
You are in no way a failure! You are one of my favorite online friends and you have always been here for me to cheer me up when I am down. If anything, you are a savior! I love you sweetie and I want you to be happy!
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[amberfairy]

thank you love. i know that older kids tend to look up to people our age... that's part of the reason why i feel like it's so disappointing that those are the people i've been getting along with. it's like... if i weren't older they probably wouldn't like me either. i know that another big part of it is that i feel more confident around kids partly because i know they look up to me... i don't feel like i'll be judged and if i am it isn't that big a deal.

thank you so much brittany. at least i have a friend my age across the country.

[sno_white89]

i totally understand what you mean... it has been forever since we have spoken - but i figure that it is never too long that someone couldn't use a friend

[amberfairy]

hi hun :) it's so nice to hear from you and i'm incredibly glad that you didn't let the fact that we haven't talked in a while keep you from putting in your two cents. i can't express how happy i am that you seem to be feeling so much better; it makes me feel great to think i was part of that.

i suppose the only issue w/ all this is that the people who are telling me that i'm such a good person are only people who have never actually met me... then that opens up a whole new can of worms...

thank you so much for your support and for just saying hello and for just being there at all.