so right now i'm working at a preschool in west hollywood as an assitant teacher making $12/hr. i work mostly with kids 2-3, but also with kids up to like 5. i'm gonna be working 5 days a week from 8:30-1:30, which means i get $300/wk. and i'm planning on taking a sign language class and a child development class ( Read more... )

ok, so what should i do this morning ( Read more... )

it seems i have nothing to say.

i feel so utterly and completely miserable. i haven't felt like crying like this in a while. i hate it.

the other day while walking in the park next to my house with my puppy, keegan, and my dad a woman passed by us with her own dog and i'm pretty sure it was minnie driver. this morning, again while walking in the park, i passed two women walking together and they each had a dog. one of them was selma hayek and i think the other one was penelope cruz ( Read more... )

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i dont want to bother with regret as it is an entirely useless emotion.

i miss him so much and whenever i think things are getting easier they suddenly seem a lot worse.

apparently the only friends i can find want to get into my pants. and i can't deny i appreciate the attention.

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i was somewhat prepared for "i love you so much, but we need some time a part."

i never expected "i'm just not in love with you anymore."

i don't know how to deal with this.

please please please please please don't take this away from me. it's what i've always wanted and i've been looking forward to it for so long now. it feels like my future, my fate, my happiness, my life depends on this. i suppose that's silly but right now it seems like everything is crashing down just when i thought i had a chance ( Read more... )