why do people insist on playing games and using people? i hate that shit. i feel like i give so much to everyone, but they only give back when it's convenient, or when they want something. i'm probably not the only one, and i'm sure people complain about this all the time... but it really is a pain in the ass ( Read more... )

i need to change... alot... and i need some motivation other than the fact that i piss my self off... i wish i had someone standing over me saying.... do this. or i'll punch you in the face. cause then i would actually do it... i'm fucking destryoing myself... and i know it... but i can't make myself change.

i'm about to start on the coolest project ever.... gonna make my own fishing pole. well i'm not really going to make it. but i'm going to paint it all over again, and make it fit me... my very own personalized fishing pole. a friend and my self sat and thought about what itwould take to do it.. and it's a little more detailed than what i originally ( Read more... )

so i had to write this paper.... and i had no motivation for it.. so i wrote about the first thing that came to mind that i though had enough substance to write 3 pages over. and it turned out to be the most boring thing ever... i mean so boring... it could probably put someone to sleep.. but anyways.. here it is ( Read more... )

ha ha ha... that is great... and sadly so true.. i heard that lyric in a song i got to listen to this weekend... some song by split lip rayfeild. i realized that had been the story of my life fore entirely too long... for so long. i've been people's bitch. i've done everything to make someone else happy... usually some dumbass boyfriend who wasn't ( Read more... )

choosing classes for the upcoming semester sucks like you wouldn't believe.. i have to take all night classes so i am very limited as to what i can even take. i wish they told you up front which classes are gonna get cancelled frequently and what classes didn't have an attendance policy. cause that would make my decision so much easier. i'd choose ( Read more... )

i started my new job today... i think i'm really going to like it. the people i've met so far are really nice. and the whole atmosphere was a lot more laid back than i'm used to. and i'll pretty much have a se schedule, no holidays or late nights, just a better job in all. plus it pays more. i won't be making much more, but i won't have to work as ( Read more... )

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grrrr... i just coughed up 147 dollars to get my kitchen sink fixed.... good thing the land lords will reemburse us... if not... i'd be shit out of luck, cause i don't have the money to cover that... brett better couch up half of it til we get reimbursed for the money....

i know i JUST wrote in this thing... but right afterwards i got this really sad feeling and the urge to cry for no reason... my eyes welled up with tears but i didn't cry. my heart got really heavy and it was hard to breathe.. it's weird. i do that sometimes.. get really depressed for a few minutes for no reason... i think it's because i always ( Read more... )