Lost

[ambianceinwater]

I've been thinking alot, thinking about my life and everything I've done in it. I'm 22 and what do I have to show for it? Nothing but a bunch of scars and horrible memerys. So many people have come in and out of my life, people who have walked on me, and mistreated me, and I let them. Because someone was there. I had someone. that was all that

Comments

[ambianceinwater]

I've never really put an effort into anything because I didn't beleive in myself. When I dropped out I remember saying, I don't want to go to colledge anyway, so what's the point of finishing this. I quit everything ever started. and those are my very few regrests in life. So it's just hard, and people are half supportine me, but more so waiting for me to give up again.

Thankyou for replying, You have always for some reson helped me through stuff, even when i was a kid.

Why we are afraid

[acdc_freak]

We are afraid, because we don't know ourselves. We are afraid because we don't know what the future will bring. We are afraid, because we can't allow ourselves the luxury of being loved, completely and unbounded. We are afraid because we don't really love ourselves. We are afraid because we won't step past the boundaries of the things we know today. We are afraid because we won't embrace tomorrow. We are afraid because we forget the basic rules of life--don't worry, cry when needed, and look forward, not back, and never forget to laugh.

Re: Why we are afraid

[ambianceinwater]

I'm afraid to fail you most of all, I've done that enough.

Re: Why we are afraid

[acdc_freak]

You have never failed me. I have probably failed to give you expectations to live up to. Oh wait, I have always expected you to dream, then go for it. I believe you are doing that. I don't think that's failure. I think you are a beautiful work in progress. You cannot fail what is not finished. Therefore you are a success, because you try, and you don't give up.

[the_eye_of_rah]

Out of curiosity, was I the one that you cut class with? Cause I would have been your friend no matter what.

[ambianceinwater]

Yeah...I was going through alot when i posted this, no affence... um this journal will be dead again soon...