TIRED WORKING

[ambies_world]

WELL HERE I AM WORKING AGAIN. REALLY NOT FEELING TO WELL BUT I HAVE TO MAKE MONEY. RIGHT? I'M STILL  IN ALOT OF PAIN BUT YA KNOW HOW THAT GOES. I'VE BEEN THINKING ALOT ABOUT MY FRIEND LAUREN.. I'M KINDA NOT REALL A GOOD FRIEND TO HER. AND I'M SO ASHAMED OF THAT.:( AND IT IS ALL B/C OF DERRICK. BUT I THINK SHE UNDERSTNDS BUT I'M NOT SURE. I THINK

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I just..

[far_from_saving]

Amber- I just don't want to get you into more trouble with derrick.. and I dont like being blamed for things by him....We've been through a lot... I know that you love him... I miss seeing you.. a lot!!!! It makes me crazy.. there is a lot going on and not being able to see you is making it worse.... one day it will be ok... but I know that derrick is most important.. no worries...I miss Cali like crazy because there I can be with my friends.... with out secrets or whatever...IM GOING CRAZY AGAIN! I will always be here for you...I am just not happy right now.. not being able to see you makes me sad... It SUCKS that you have to ask permission to see your friends and he treats you like that....thats what makes me mad.. plus him practically HATING MY GUTS... doesnt help him let you hang out with me.... I miss ya girly....its a bummer about school because its dori's freshman year and I thought that we could all make it the best year EVER together... *tear*...well hopefully it will all work out for us...

Lauren*