so idk..i just have to say a few things. what is it about me that people just love to lie to me? am i just the type of person to give off that impression? obviously. time after time when i beleive someone and then i like repeatdly catch them in a lie, i get frustrated. then they get mad at me for not trusting them.well TOUGH FUCKING SHIT. im tired ( Read more... )

-school is the stupidest thing ever. its only the 3rd week and im already bitching what a loser.
so i feel like i owe it to this sad little journal to update on it.well UPDATE!!! me and my friend amanda from school have gotten pretty close, i worked with her over the summer and now we have like 5 classes together bc were both in nursing.so its great ( Read more... )

you take my hand and you say youve changed..but boy you know your begging dont fool me because to you its just a game

im gonna say this now..your chance 
has come and gone

you know all the right things to say you know its just too little too late
you say you dream of my face but you dont like me your just a good chase....
 SO BE REAL
aaghhh...i love that ( Read more... )

i feel like such a failure
like i have a job but i dont make a whole lot bc i dont work alot...so andrew wants to get a loan and get me a car bc its alot of gas to put in his truck and stuff and its just a general pain to cme get me and take me home.but like im so afraid that if i get a job like hes talking about like 30-40 hours a week, im not ( Read more... )

okay so i guess its about time i lived up to the name of this thing and idk actually wrote in iT?
alot has happened in these past few weeks i guess so lets start a rewind shall we?
my vacation was only OK. no i didnt get trashed, yes i did thank god that andrew treated me ok but he didnt treat me any better or worse than i thought he would.My ( Read more... )

"she came back into reality from the dream that she had been having.the dream in which things werent going wrong,horribly wrong, the dream in which her stomach wasnt turning into knots at every angle no matter which way she moved.when everything wasnt broken,her life wasnt tron and shattered.where was that dream when she awoke?placed inside that ( Read more... )

my chinchilla died yesterday.unexpected.not from anything i know of.idk..il be able to write more about it when just thinking about it doesnt make me ache.im so heartbroken.

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i am a girl and i get jealous. i cry easy and my feelings get hurt. i am insecure.but i will not make excuses for that.and if for some reason people cant handle it?talk to me lets work on it..or idk maybe lets not who cares

so if anyone has a problem.shove it as far as you can take it.i am who i am.i called amanda and idk shes liek kel, you need to ( Read more... )

my stomach is still tangled up in knots.

i really cannot do this anymore.

but what i want to know is when i started being so weak.?when did i let myself go?i think i remember...it was that moment when i found myself in his eyes and said "i love you too."my hands are shaking so bad
i dont even think i should go up to the beach.
with who is going up im ( Read more... )

so much has happened in the past 5 days i dont even think getting into detail would help the ppl who dont know whats going on.the brisk finality of it all, is that i really have to take a step back a re-evaluate my relationship.i thought friday night got everything out in the open and shit..well andrew just messes things up more.its clearly obvious ( Read more... )