so we talked.

he wont stand for anything.basically hes going to do whatever he can to salvage whats left of us.theres so much left.i feel it.hes like really upset by things too.he is just going to have to try like me.idk our anniversary is in like 11 days. 2 years <3 i never thought id live to see this day....

im happy just annoyed.depression is ( Read more... )

listen to "let it burn" by usher

this is how i feel right now.complete and utter confusion idk whats wrong with me.i mean ive got this great amazing guy..or is he?really?

yes.he is.in every aspect but hes not who i was with almost 2 years ago.im not kelly from 2 years ago.theres just too much i have to deal with in this relationship im not in a ( Read more... )

why am i so ugly? and fat?

ugh

i like really hate myself.i cant take this anymore.like i hate girls too.i wish i was a guy.not really.but girls are like these evil devil people.there is no amount to what people will do to get revenge. idk like i wish this girl was never in his life.i wish i could just tell her that i hate her so much.i have never ( Read more... )

whatever these quasi-dreams i am having about..people...they need to stop !

idk im ok.i just got maybe 2 hours of shuteye last night.. idk what the hell is wrong with me.will i ever sleep normally again? i mean why do i have these...subconcious detailed and seemingly very real dreams?that wake me with a jolt and i have to have to make sure im still ( Read more... )

this could be it...i think im in love...it just seems to fit.

and i miss you.like crazy. idk so whats new in life?i really really want to see brokeback mountain my main man Jake Gyllenhaal is one of the gay cowboys. <3 hes all mine  im sorry im just playing around with this thing.so me and andrew went to my aunts party sat i got a lil drunk and ( Read more... )

by the way i feel fat and horribly digustiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing.

Ew.

i think i need a    b r e a k.

from him most of all.i cant keep waiting around waiting for him to be ready for me because this is who i am, who ill be and so here i come ready or not andrew here i come.

idk i hate my relationship sometimes i hate it.i hate every friday night we sit and do nothing im sorry im not a girl who likes to play cards all ( Read more... )

I spent my day in the hospital yesterday.I had a migraine so bad i couldnt take it anymore.So they said i have vascular migraines now.I have to make all these appointments. they had to give me 4 pain shots before the bastard would ease up. :( i still feel crappy

i stole this from mk ( Read more... )

okay to anyone that i have offended in the past idk 19 years accept my apologies.I just dont get why everyone else in this world is entitled to their own opinons and when i open my mouth to say something i  thought might be hurtful to someone i get a bashing? anyways i know who i mean and i also know that the comment i left was not intended to slam ( Read more... )