"man's origin is dust,
and dust is his end.
each of us is a shattered urn,
grass that must wither,
a flower that will fade,
a shadow moving on,
a cloud passing by,
a particle of dust floating in the wind,
a dream soon forgotten."
+ + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + + +after services today i came home and watched a movie, and finally went to the ( Read more... )

last night i went to the movies with jill, after a lot of persuading my mom. "i don't like you driving on the interstate..." it's not any different than driving on 528.. we saw "the good girl." it was alright, it had its moments. the boy who was in it was really "intense" and interesting. it would change me a lot if i met someone like him in real ( Read more... )

i'm almost, almost finished with my history essay. only the conclusion to go..

once again in find myself in the middle. it's like three way phone tag, but i'm the only one talking to more than one person. "oh, i missed his call." hm.

maybe, because i've been so sheltered and protected - unexposed to anything harmful, to the real world - i don't realize the seriousness of a dangerous life. maybe that's why that lifestyle is so enticing and glamorous. because i can ignore my worries serenity and calmness. or, maybe i'm just FUCKING RETARDED .

( good time long ago )

"if i put myself in that position myself to be immune to you
to keep my heart from breaking if you can't make up your mind"

dammit. why do i get caught up in so much NARISHKAYT (foolishness)?

danny: you need to feed my boys with a long handled spoon. do you know what that means ( Read more... )

i don't understand how some people have so much freedom and their parents are so... trusting? not like, trailer park trusting, where the parents don't care. but, they are allowed to go out and they're not afraid of their parents. i don't think i'm that bad of a kid. i mean, sure i do things i'm not supposed to. but i think i've cleaned up ( Read more... )

so, today was rosh hashana. the service was really long and we went to panera to eat afterward. my mom wants me to join the temple youth group... eeewww. she really pushes the religion stuff; i think if i brought over the scummiest guy with heroin tracks in his arms, if he was jewish she would judge him differently ( Read more... )

oytser: treasure. "what an oytser you found in your lovely husband. i'm so jealous.

i watched "silence of the lambs" with valerie and rachel p. tonight; i had a good time. rachel is so craaaazy. and we tried on all her old dresses for homecoming. i don't think i've smiled that much in a week...

rosh hashana tomorrow. happy new year, you guys!