I feel like I'm in a daze. The kind of daze that follows you until it's finished with you. It's similar to the daze that I felt when I was pregnant. But I'm not pregnant. I'm sick. I have a feeling I'm so stressed that I am now becoming a little depressed. But it's not the overwhelming kind. It's just not happy. Going home for winter break was nice ( Read more... )

Yesterday was strange. Laura and I both had an 8 oz. can of Red Bull, and then proceeded to have a 16 oz. of Red Bull. We were shitting our pants with anxiety after that. We've grown ourselves a very comfortable and familiar existence here. It's Island life. And it's really hard to leave. And I may be getting sick as well. I'm just so tired. I have ( Read more... )

I'm afraid of leaving the island. Island reality is much nicer than California reality. I'm like Alice in Wonderland here.

Had my first day of clinic yesterday. Went pretty well. The rehearsal really calmed down my nerves for it. It was exhausting though, doing 3 full body massages in a row ( Read more... )

Looking for another place to live is starting to wear me down. I wish Kevin would take over, but as much as I would love for him to do it, I feel like I would have better luck because I'm a girl. The 3 German girls that were staying in one of the rooms left. Thank God. They were loud and obnoxious, and I don't give a shit if they have jet lag, they ( Read more... )

I had my clinic rehearsal yesterday. Super nerve-racking. We had to work on people who already graduated from the school. It was my first time doing a massage on a stranger. At first I was all shaky and lacked confidence, but as I was massaging her I just tried focusing on her body and how it felt, and I started to do better. My first clinic shift ( Read more... )

Oh life. I had a re-birthing meditation therapy session on Tuesday. It was gnarly. It's all about your breath. You go into this trance like state and your subconscious wakes up and turns into consciousness. All these repressed memories and emotions start bubbling up. I had a memory of my brother and I running around when we were little, laughing ( Read more... )

So much school and procrastinating of school that I haven't had much time to enjoy the Aloha-life as of late. We started Deep Tissue this week, which was great. I'm getting so much strength in my arms and wrists. They hardly ever get sore anymore. We begin Sports Massage tomorrow. I have to make-up Lomi Lomi with the part time class because I was ( Read more... )

There's something about a group of smokers/stoners that makes me feel comfortable ( Read more... )

Having trouble staying focused in school. I've probably skipped more than I should have. Ooops ( Read more... )