Drunken musings. About time. I met a boy. His name is Brett. He makes me laugh. He makes me uncomfortable, both of which are good things I don't really think he's "into" me, which is fine, if annoying. He reminds me os Shaun. All heart and no hope. I don't think I can handle that. I don't think we'd be good together as a couple, but I sort of ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning full of exhaustion and a little despair. I have a perfectly lovely, boring life. It is small and it is dependable and it is mine. I am not blind to the beauty in that, though I feel dreadfully ungrateful in this moment. What I hunger for is not *things,* or even people, but I find myself bereft of *meaning.* I don't really ( Read more... )

I'm prescribed antidepressants. Sometimes I take them, other periods, I don't. Not sure why, just get a wild hair up my ass sometimes and I simply... stop. Maybe it's to remind myself why I need the damn things--that I function better with the miracle of science. Maybe it's a trial, a test to decide if I can still sacrifice my creativity and ( Read more... )

Thank God for Death and Sarah Bareilles. I might never write another word, were it not for those two things ( Read more... )

Next presentation? Naw, not for me

Last week I took a trip down to southern Cal to visit some friends. I decided to go completely on a whim--I hitched a ride with a couple of Troy's friends--Rose and her sister, Lisa--they were headed back to LA, so I bought a return plane ticket and off I went ( Read more... )

If you saw ME in a police car, what would you think I got arrested for? Answer me, then if you want, post to your own journal and see how many crimes you get accused of.

I haven't posted in recent months because there either hasn't been much to say, or there hasn't been much I've wanted to share. Today I feel a little different. Today I feel hopeful, thoughtful even ( Read more... )

I have yet another interview next week. I'm not particularly excited, but it would be more than what I'm doing now and it'd help pay the bills, which is kind of what's important to me at the moment ( Read more... )

I got a text message last week that went something like this ( Read more... )