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last night i dreamed i was with him. we were together. i was lying in his arms, sleeping. i hated waking up. it took me a few minutes to realize that i couldnt have that, no matter how much i wanted it. and that hurt ( Read more... )

don't you hate it when time seems to speed up, then slow down, over and over again?

i think my theme song should be fighter by christina aguilera. not totally true, but i think it should be my theme song for now anyway ( Read more... )

i dont think i will go to school tomorrow. i need the extra time to do my grapes of wrath project. and to sleep in. and dream about the next day that i will wake up, a taken woman again ( Read more... )

sometimes, when i hear his voice, i think we're back together. i can't get myself out of the habit of calling him sweetie. i did it again on the phone today. i can't stop thinking of him like that ( Read more... )

in OWL today, we were supposed to "meditate" on a romantic, sexy fantasy. or something like that. beyond it being really strange and shan giggling the whole time, it really made me sad. cuz all i could think about was good memories with reese ( Read more... )

ya know? right before this whole breakup thing, suddenly one day i woke up and everything was right with the world. i was okay. i was optimistic again! it was like i was suddenly pulled out of the hole i was in. it was magnificent. reese and i were happy for those few days, until he fell down a very similar hole ( Read more... )

NOTICE: what scott said was NOT mean, it was only exactly what i asked him to do, he told me the truth. what he HONESTLY thought. and i told him that. he is NOT the reason that reese and i broke up. i seriously think that we would have broken up eventually anyway, this just happened to be the thing that sparked it. END NOTICE ( Read more... )

WHAT DOES HE WANT ( Read more... )