I am going to jump with out a parachute. I have to work six days this week. I am tired and my scars that were imprinted as a child are starting to bleed. I hate my brother. He likes to put me down. It hurts. I need a boyfriennd and/or girlfriend. Help! Todays is so unexciting. I can't quite grasp the ones I love. I have discovered that My ( Read more... )

I am incredibly tired. I hate family and my brother is going to be a bastard for ever. I love me. I have to work tonight as well as the rest of the week. Well I am going to go smoke a lot of happiness away. Do not worry I am not talking about drugs. Remember to love me.

My best friend just left and I do not have to work for another four hours. I am tired in a way. I have not discovered how much it hurts to be with someone. Is it better to be single and fake a few orgasms or is it better to be alone? My options are very limited because I am very picky. Why is it so hard to find an industrial guy with long hair ( Read more... )

As I sit at my work, I realize that time is only important to those that actually mean something. I had a blast last night. My mom is being a super bitch and my brother moved back last night. The fuck head got his car impounded. I do not know what else to say, so later.

I am sick and tired of this everyday happy bullshit. I am having a lot of fun at Ana's house and I did get sleep last night a whole five hours. I plan on getting sleep tonight. I have decided that labels are fun especially when you go against what you are labeled. I am not doing to much better emotionally but Ana is helping a lot. This is like ( Read more... )

I hate my brother he was so nice to me today instead of hitting me with a metal hanger he hit me with a plastic one. God I fucking love him. I am tired and emotionally drained. I had the most rebelious thoughts I have ever had. Not actions just thoughts. I need help. I do not know where to get it. I hate this. Am I going to be alone forever ( Read more... )

I am so unbelievably happy. First I saw my "help". First of all he was a guy and he was Asian Big No No. My best friend got his nippels and nose pierced. (EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW) He still looks good. I am Happy that Jazmyn did my page and Ana is really beautiful. I love you Jazmyn. Thank You! You rock. I am going to a gay baseball game on Saturday ( Read more... )

I have always wondered how it is going to end? This is what pisses me off about life. I have learned so much from writting that I have never concluded a piece with out an ending. Why can't I do that with life. This is not fair. I took a six hour nap and right now I am at work. I have nothing exciting to say but I will quote myself once more ( Read more... )

I hurt today. I hurt in the bottom of my gut. I have notice those who consider actually hooking up with me are too afraid in what thier friends think. I am disturb and I see my counselor on monday. I hate life not to the fullest but I do regret everything I did for everybody but myself. The only reason why I ever got into drugs or smoked or ( Read more... )

I apologize for my absence in posting my thoughts. My exboyfriend killed himself on monday. I have to have plastic surgery on my face. I am tired and my parents think I am crazy. My mom told me I need to get help or she is going to get me help. I hate all the fuckung selfish people. My friend Julie said "Tomorrow is not today". It hurts to be ( Read more... )