no wait, no partying.

i'm getting the ball rolling. starting essay numero uno of dos. awesome. i think i can do it. i've got the motivation, goal, crap.

so i open live journal to check up on how the few people i know on here are doing. no one has posted anything today. weird. i'm not used to this and i feel awkward. like i was just born out of the womb. cold and like i'm about to be spanked. sorry, that was a strange thing to say. i'm a spaz.

close your eyes...let me touch your face...let me give you something that is real...close the door...leave your fears behind...let me give you what you're giving me...

flames by vast. listen to it, love it. cry. cry a lot. fuck.

i am not satisfied with how things are going. this sucks. GROWL. wow i'm not happy at all right now. i want to go skiing so i can pent up frustrations further by getting a cheap release of tension from the pounding adreneline. FUCK.

essays in the moooooorning, doo dah, doo dah.
i lose. big time. worst, essay, ever. kaput.

so bored. so completely fucking bored. it's so beautiful up here in the valley with the snow adorning all of the trees and my poor little car......yet i'm so fucking bored. i hate loving it and hating it up here simultaneously. i want to go drive up to medford but there's too much snow. problem. i want to drink with friends tonight but most of them ( Read more... )

so i was raped today by my biology final. they put 3 essay questions on the test about the only thing i didn't understand. cool. there goes 60 points out of 200 so far. so, assuming that i got everything else right (sooooooooooo doubtful), i got 140 out of 200. that's still an awful grade. i lose today. i'm giving up and watching shaun of the dead ( Read more... )

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

not really, i get no pleasure from finals. especially studying for finals ( Read more... )

oh god. i might get to go skiing on saturday. aaaaand i wouldn't have to be the one that drives. god yes. oh oh oh! that's me orgasming from the idea of getting to go skiing. i'm pathetic. meh, i dont give a damn, if you knew what's good for you, you'd be doing the same. soon grasshopper, you shall learn the truth. kinda ( Read more... )