tonight...

::heavy sigh::

::cries::

ok, so , apparently my last couple entries have been trashed. i dont know why, but they are no longer here. stupid livjeournal people. or maybe i was doing somehting wrong. or something is wrong with th eother computer. either one is possible. so i recap ( Read more... )

this is in reality what no one means. its words rolling off the tips of peoples tongues. [lets share these lies and call it a night].yeah, i think i love you. but being lonely feels so much more at home tonight with the hums of the tv and the microwave cooking the dinner i won’t eat. the mirror refuses to tell me who i am. and i’m stuck again - ( Read more... )

i am so wired right now i cant sleep. i am alot of other things too but we wont talk about those right now ( Read more... )

went out with jon down to the beach tonight. went to eat but i dont remember what the restaurant was called. it was a good night.

why do i torture myself like this?

i only want to be happy.

thats all.

is it really that impossible?

i was thinking, overthinking ( Read more... )

i met someone and i didnt mean to. dave. hes a cutie and hes really sweet but i dont kno him too well. but he asked for 'the digits' and my sn so i guess thats a good thing. hes also like 20. hes never had a real gf because he hasnt met 'the one' [aww] guess ill just ride it out and see what happens ( Read more... )

well i uhhhh yea. i dont know how to start. i hate arguing with people. thats good. i hate getting mad i hate losing my temper. when someone i care so much for makes me lose it that makes me feel even worse. and over such fucking stupif shit. things that should never get in the way in the first place. things that should NEVER be an issue in any ( Read more... )

ok. dude. wtf is this ( Read more... )