This used to be one of those "friends only" pages, i've just been to lazy to figure out what backdate i should set it to ( Read more... )

This hasn't been bad so far. If anything I could stand to be around LESS people.

Fuck.
I am over 290#.

I never wanted to be anywhere near 300 again.

Fuck.

I feel like I have no fucking control.

I think I am depressed ( Read more... )

Sitting on a beam, the guys were talking about how another stagehand's daughter was knocked up. "Well what did he expect ater bringing her here" "I would never bring my daughter to work here" (please note, she wasen't knocked up by a stagehand ( Read more... )

I am a hot mess of lonely and I don't know how to fix it. Heck, the thought of even trying feels too daunting and scary. I haven't hooked up with anyone in a while. I haven't seen my friends or done anything fun or party like in a while. (and I think the last time I did I left miserable) I don't have anything in common with coworkers other then ( Read more... )

I think a lot of my bad eating habits are self destructive in nature. I feel similar levels of feelings when I go out and binge on food as when i used to self injure. I know I don't want to eat that much. I know it doens't taste as good anymore, and that It is making me uncomfortable. I know I don't have to clear my plate, or order the appetizer ( Read more... )

I am lonely. It's pretty much my fault. I avoid the chance to get close to people so I can't be hurt/rejected.

Sorry, too busy right now for that shit.

I feel like there is nothing interesting left about me. I work and I work out. I talk about both to death. To the point where I'm sure everyone who deals with me is pretty effin sick of both ( Read more... )

I kind of had sex with this guy the other night at his place. We were in a den type area on a massive farm by a wood burning cast iron stove. Unfortunately, he was having some medical issues and they had put him on a new medication, which made his boner, a bummer (hence the "kind of"). So instead of an epic round of fucking, we actually just ( Read more... )