Instead of doing my Economics work, I decided to actually write in this old space of mine. I haven't written since 2004, a lot has changed in my life since then. For one, Ryan is just non-existant in my life, I actually have a job I LOVE, and I feel like I've grown up so much ( Read more... )

Haha...I think I'm actually done being the neurotic girl I always am.  I'm officially no longer a single person...officially someones better half...officially happy with what life has given me.

A couple of entries ago I wrote that Ryan was back in my life.  I also wrote that at that time things were going to happen however they were going to happen ( Read more... )

Sigh ( Read more... )

Wow...I actually have time to breathe...what a concept ( Read more... )

So yeah...super busy. No time for anything...no time for myself. NO TIME! Thank God I have a 3 day weekend, thank you fourth of july ( Read more... )

Wow...this week has been the biggest bitch in creation.  School started back up...and holy shit this is going to be a hard quarter.  M-W I have 14 hour days...I go straight to school from work...no breaks.  Oh well, at least I'm super busy, which is what I like.  But wow...I never knew it would be this hard.  Its really weird just coming home to ( Read more... )

Why can't I move on?? It was so easy for him to move on...why am I still here upset and lost? I stopped crying a few days ago. But my heart is still crying...she needs to stop, she needs to let me heal. I miss him...heh WHY DO I MISS HIM??? He totally hurt me...he totally ripped my heart out of my chest and stepped on it while laughing. I ( Read more... )

Just to give you an indication of how my day went...I'll let you know what happened first thing this morning ( Read more... )

I sat here for about 30 minutes before I started to type. My mind has lost the ability to think....how to feel. It has its moments where its severely mad, sad, lost....never happy though. I think I am officially gone. Don't I get a party for something like this ( Read more... )

So we are going on day 3 of the sleepless nights. I think I've had about 2 hours the past 3 nights. Hmm...isn't this the time where I start to hallucinate? Hey, I welcome it, at least I wont be bored.

Had my Active Directory final tonight. I royally fucked up on it. That final was the biggest bitch I have ever come across.  I don't understand why ( Read more... )