I'm sorry I havent posted in a while, things have been hectic. On Valentines day I totaled my car and am still feeling the lingering effects of the crash. My car was struck on the passenger side and spun twice. If it had slide another two feet it would have hit the ditch, flipped, and I would be dead. Now I have no car. Two of the pillars in my ( Read more... )

It doesn't really surprise me that I havent been getting comments on my entries. I wonder sometimes why I bother to write them at all, I don't really think anyone cares what I have to say. But I still figure that I should let you guys know. I had a psychitirst appointment yesterday, I told her about my blackouts and showed her the most recent scars ( Read more... )

Too trying of a time. Thrown out because of Scott's foolishness, unable to see my sister. A trama it seems, with my disorder. Problems with love, with family, with the law. And a haphazardous slice up the vain of my left arm, dotted over with two dozen other fresh cuts. My therapist is frantic at this point, my psychitrist ready to medicate me to ( Read more... )

Things have been so strange. My dreams have been plauged with wolves and a beautiful raven that whispers to me the most convincing lies to turn me away from the wolves I fly beside. My gifts in divination are growning with the help of a man named Shadow. Not a kid, a 28 year old man with much experiance in the arts. But as often as I go to him for ( Read more... )

So I spent two nights in jail. And it was easily the most frightening experiance of my life. Anyone who says county jail is nothing obviously has never been in the womens part of it. After everything I have done wrong in my life I got picked up for shoplifting at walmart. The two nights scared me to death. Scared Frank too. He and a couple of my ( Read more... )

What an eventful week. New Years was nice, I got to spend some time with old friends. Kyra and Micheal, I love you both. Time to drink, have fun, relax. But this new year is already turning out to be something strange. One of my friends and brother is dead. What hurts most is that it wasn't accidental. It all seems to be a set up by someone else ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in quite a while. So many things, not many that are important. Got fired from my job, over some bullshit. Looking for a new job. Anyone know anywhere that is hiring? Had a good Christmas. Spent a lot of it with Frank's family. They are so much like my family now. I got an ICP hat from my sister. A cameo pin from Kim that almost ( Read more... )

I had almost forgotten how exciting life could be. Excitement is what attracts me to men like Frank in the first place. Interesting events have been taking place to say the least. Example: hotel party, people freaking out, and having a knife pulled on me by a drug dealer. Fun to me, I love that sort of excitement. Frank however, pissed off would be ( Read more... )

I cant even begin to explain how wonderful the past few days have been. I'm feeling so much better. Frank and I are getting along wonderfully, for the most part. The argueing has pretty much ceased (for now, and hopefully for a long time). I had my winterfest preformance last night, it was fun. For everyone interested, the winterfest Trolleys start ( Read more... )

I see no need to explain myself, or to explain him to everyone. Suffice it to say that Frank and I have finally talked. It took no more than a moment in his presense to make me realize that there was no way that I could ever turn him away completely. But those of you close to me must have known that. I simply love him more than is healthy for me. ( Read more... )