i have strep throat!! :( :( gay... mistakes .. hmmm.. silly silly.. no regrets really.. should i regret doing what i do? maybe the effect but if in my mind i desired what more wrong to follow through? woo hoo lauren and ashley are home!!!! im so happy!!! all my lovely ladies are here! party time!! haha

this dark inside unfamiliar since the past.. growing in spite, hatred, callousing the heart. no feeling no touch just ice and tears. drawing near is an option but not a desire.. the sickness is alive, it tears and rips into the built up being. hypocrisy, a laugh for irony, deceitful and manipulative, secretive to yourself. sitting in the corner ( Read more... )

haha whoever said surrender was comfortable yet my hands are so much smaller than His ( Read more... )

getting hurt and losing a friendship $many tears and holes in the wall ( Read more... )

livejournal is so strange to me i havent used it in a while.... how come lips deceit runs so persistently and when they say .. w/e i give up lol i dont even know what i feel.. gaahhh why does God keep us in the dark for so long?? i want to take the step but i have so many inabitions that hold me back i havent been allowing myself to come through ( Read more... )

so God is unfailing love and He's the answer right?? you know when you study really hard for a test and then when it asks you a question and you second guess yourself but you know the answer?? well thats what has been happening with me i know that i know that i know that God is who He says He is and He is the way the truth and the life.. and not ( Read more... )

these things in my mind swirl around and i cant find a clock that will stop going round.. the words in my mind are all pushing through and i cant grab one until too late they flew. Like pounding stones and drilling pain.. my heart is in mud as my mind is to blame.Good things are about yet i sit here in discontent due to my judgemental mouth and my ( Read more... )

God is so amazing!! His grace is so abounding!! Im so exited for the next five years of life. I am still struggling though with stupid things that seem big when i let them block me..

so i read joannas live journal and it got me thinking. I have a husband out there somewhere and even though i know i wont know him for about 5 years (maybe earlier or later) i still know he's there. So why do i waste my mind and emotions on someone elses husband?? its their job not mine. why then do i flirt and entertain with anyone!!! aaahhhh and ( Read more... )

when is being honest wrong? at what point to you stop telling someone how you realy feel? if it hurts them? if it will help them change? how can i point my finger when i am doing the same? am i though ?????????????