i broke up with jake again. im so beside mysel. i love him so much. but i really dont think i can continue on like this. i hate this. i hate love. i hate relationships. i hate crying. i dont know what to do with myself. i just want to bury myself under the ground and rot.

i want to do something for halloween!

this sucks...........

so my birthday is on tuesday! and i have no clue what to do for it. all i know is that i would really like to celebrate it somehow! cus i havent the past feew years! ill be 19. not an extrememly important number but a number none the less. i was thinking about going to a rave or something for the first time. but i cant think of anyone that would ( Read more... )

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today on the way to dads the police man pulled us over. seriosuly he pulled us over right in the driveway of dads complex. he thought we were trying to escape him or something....if only his day were that interesting. hah! anyway, he ended up impounding our car for being unregistered. great morning aye? but after he finally let us go i walked over ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnylM1hI2jc

today the car got impounded at 6:30 this morning. tough stuff. but for any one that knows me well, you'll know what this next sentence means:
i saw a white cat so everyything is going to be okay.

you know how they say be careful what you wish for? well its true!everything ive been wishing for has been coming true. down to the littlest thing like more hours at work or a meal cus i dont have money that day etc. i now realize just how much control i have, and how strongly my power is surging. the energies are not only radiating form me but ( Read more... )

i just found out that a good friend of mine just overdosed on heroin. i hope you're alright poot.

dude. its fucking hot. but im happy. and thats the point.