Mackenzie is back to complaining of a stomach ache every single day. Now, it's not as severe as it was earlier this year, but it's annoying, nonetheless. She says she has a cramp in her belly, and she usually just lies down for about 5 minutes and it's gone. Sometimes it will come back during the day, but it's usually just once a day. I have ( Read more... )

It's been a while. Right now, I'm trying to plan ahead for our trip in a couple of weeks. I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. Joe said at dinner last night (I had to go to the city to get him b/c there was a fire in the station, and there were no trains to LI) that he was "excited" about moving down to Charleston. That made me so fucking ( Read more... )

About 2 weeks ago, I applied for a buyer credit through Paypal. I applied online, and then had to confirm some things over the phone. When I spoke to the rep. she said I was approved, gave me the amount I was approved for, and told me I would receive an email within 72 hours, and a package within 7-10 days. When I never received the email, I ( Read more... )

Well, yesterday was the first OFFICIAL day that the house was on the market. I had 6 people come to see it between 2 and 5 yesterday, and by 4:30, we had an offer! Sounds good to me - even if we don't take his offer - because that means I don't have to mill about at home, keeping it as clean as possible, for very long. YAY! Damn...Kegan is ( Read more... )

I fucking HATE Paypal. I held for over 30 minutes last night, and got tired of it, so I hung up. Now I'm on hold again. A lady just came on the phone as I started typing this, and then, she put be BACK ON HOLD. Mother fuckers. Paypal really sucks. Anyway, I had 2 realtors here yesterday, plus I've got 1 coming tonight and 1 more tomorrow ( Read more... )

I shouldn't be sitting here typing this. I need to get this house spotless by tomorrow at 11am for the rush of the realtors. I'm excited to see what they have to say! I'm giving myself a guilt trip, so I'm gonna run. Hopefully I'll write more later.

Hmmmm...things are pretty even right now. No extreme emotions for the moment (from my end, anyway). Joe got home from Miami on Monday night. It was great to see him and really comforting to have him home (until that little thing about "I'm done with this shit", but whatever). It's weird, though, because I almost feel like he's got no say in ( Read more... )

Ugh...I am seriously struggling to figure out how I am going to make it through tomorrow...Joe's gone, and we're stuck here. I just talked to him and he's going out to dinner I guess...at this point, I would just love to take a shower, or maybe take a shit in peace. Either/or would be lovely. I will never do this again.

nevermind...i guess it's not within me to do the things i want to...i need a shrink...

Life is chock full of choices, and I've decided to make conscious decisions about the way I live my life and the way I treat my family. Mackenzie and Kegan deserve so much more than I've been offering them. They deserve to have a happy mother. Joe deserves to have a happy wife. I will LET GO of the anger and resentment I harbor towards Joe. I ( Read more... )