It's not going to be anything special. In fact, it can't be; it's just about 1:30 in the morning, and I'm fucking exhausted. Problem is, lately, I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping. Not sure entirely why really, but I've been working longer hours, and have been in and out of being sick enough to warrant an almost nonexistant lack of ' ( Read more... )

It’s not often enough that I think about the way things used to be; the magic, or the mystery, or the general allure of the unknown and mysterious that used to drive me into so much dreaming. And as I get older, I’m finding that things that were once so special, and so wondrous, are so fucking normal to me now that I can’t understand how I was ( Read more... )

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I’m salivating over the idea that I can push myself far beyond what I think I’m capable of. Don’t get me wrong, I think myself grand, and lovely, but not very capable usually. I have a built-in mechanism that, for some odd years now, has kept me from being arrogant and pushy and otherwise untouched by the world. Most hated it, but some loved it, ( Read more... )

Guess I have a lot to say today. I don’t feel particularly motivated to write, but it’s a gorgeous day, and when it’s nice like this - in the spring, I mean - I tend towards emoting more. For some obvious reasons, it’s my favorite time of year; it’s also the time of year the most monumental and wonderful things have happened for me in my life, ( Read more... )

Demanded.

Like I don’t have enough to do, right? But when it’s demanded, and you don’t mind it entirely, you do it. And you hate it, I’d bet, but you do it and learn to love it. When you’re young, it’s much easier to dislike; you make up excuses against it and throw up walls like, “I just don’t get it,” or “maybe I’m just not good at it,” but in ( Read more... )

You scored as Hedonism. Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life’s pleasures as much as you can.

“Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!”

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Hedonism
90%
Strong Egoism
85%
Nihilism
70%
Apathy
65%
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Christ, I really don’t try to be so goddamn melodramatic. I always have so much feeling when I write on here, but I’m so fucking vague. I leave everything open, and empty, and enigmatic. And to a select few people, maybe it’ll make some sense, but only because they’re involved, or something else, you know? To all the rest, it might be pretty words ( Read more... )

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I feel disconnected from the world around me anymore; I’m not depressed, so stop fucking thinking it now, but I feel just about completely numb to anything and just about everything in my life. There are exceptions, I’ll admit, because I couldn’t much exist without the capacity for some kind of feeling, one way or the other, but those moments are ( Read more... )