i'm going for  echocradiogram tomorrow.
Pray that everyhing will be ok

My lack of word is reaally  creeping up on me.  I think i have soccial anxiety or crazy I don't really know. Maybe i'mm shy ( Read more... )

i'm depressed. Too fat. I look horrible and face look like a pig . i wanna cut all the fat out.
I actually know how people feel when people wanna  relapse again. I will not give advice on recovery anymore.
If losing weight make them happy then go for it. I'm going crazy rite now. Sorryy for being a bitch.

i was with my aunt in the car today and she ( Read more... )

 Life is so sad when you have ED ( Read more... )

 i think my younger sis ( 22) become aneroxic. She was 180lb when she was in HS. After she got to college she lost some weight. Her jeans range from 7-9.(Mostly 7). She eat lots of fruits, but now i don't see her eating anything anymorre. I don't want her end up like me. Tis will destroy hher life. She is very outgoing and smart ( Read more... )

  I don't want to recover anymore. I am depressed beause i am now 100lbs at 5'4 ( Read more... )

 i have a good day  today. Tomorrow i'm goin to border and look for my text books on Maternal which will costs be aroudnd $200.. ouch. Luckily my parent help me with this. School start in 2 weeks, i guess i won't have time to on thi site because i will spend my days in hospital , lab, and class.  i'm goin to miss you all ( Read more... )

Hello . I 'm bore so i just want somehing to do. i decide to write about my info on ED so that you guys would know more about me.

You can call me Cathy. i'm in my early 20 and in nursing schooll.I live iin PA, usa. I started when i was a somphmore in high school because i want to be healthy and maintain my weight. I was underweight when i was ( Read more... )

 
TGIF

I got no life. so goin to stay in today.

I went to Whole food market today. I got some carob chips, wasabi peaas, rolled dates, and raisin. I mixed them togeter and make my own trail mix. I think it's about 300 cal or less. But i feel so guilty because i allow myself to eat JUNKS. 
Whole Food Market is one of my weaknesses. They always give out ( Read more... )

a month ago i said i want to be healthy. So i eat normlal and havenr t weight myself. But now i feel like i gain ot of weight and still does not feel healthy. I feel sad, bloat, fat, and tired all the time.
i am scare that body will get use to this and i can't control my hunger aaymore.a