Have to meet my stepdad today, I hate him so fucking much. I wouldn't even bother if I didn't think my mum would want me to. There's nothing he can say that can undo what he did or make me stop hating him so what's the point?

But I know I eat my emotions so I'm scared. All I need to remember is that he's already ruined so much for me, I can't let ( Read more... )

Progress Report: Good :]

Project Birthday Fast Number 3: Hour 70.5
CW: 134.4lbs
Weightloss so far: 4.8lbs

It's 4am and I can't sleep *yay* I'm going to do some more work on my dissertation, I have a feeling I wont get much done tomorrow. I did 1,000 words today putting my total up to 2,000, the absolute max I can write is between 8,000 and 10,000 and 1 ( Read more... )

 Progress Report: Meh, it's ok

Project Birthday Fast Number 3: Hour 54.74
CW: 135.4lbs
Weightloss so far: 3.8lbs

So technically it's not a fast anymore but it's going well enough that I'm going to keep referring it to one. A more accurate name would be 'Period of extreme restricting to try and lose 9.4-11.4lbs in the next 10 days as my birthday is in ( Read more... )

Progress Report:  Not too bad :]

Project Birthday Fast Number 3: Hour 32.5
CW: 136.4lbs
Weightloss so far: 2.8lbs

  Progress Report: Better, but I'm still way off target, I was meant to be 130lbs tomorrow! Thats NOT going to be happening anytime soon

Project Birthday Fast Number 3: Hour 22.5
CW: 136.8lbs
Weightloss so far: 2.4lbs

Not even 24 hours in yet and down 2lbs, though to be fair I binged like a motherfucker before I started the fast, once all that extra ( Read more... )

 Progress Report: Haha, don't ask :/

Project Birthday Fast Number 3: Hour 12
CW: 138.8lbs
Weightloss so far: 0.4lbs
(I was down 1lb but I've had diet coke to drink, tbh I'm going to try and not worry about my weight whilst fasting because it quite often doesn't change and I let it discourage me, I'm not going to be discouraged this time, I can'y afford ( Read more... )

Once again, slow progress is slow in terms of weight but I've gotten smaller in size so I don't mind so much, obviously the whole point of losing weight is to get smaller but if I'm getting smaller anyway then I can pay a little less attention to the numbers.
My housemate yesterday was telling me that I'd lost weight and my legs had gotten thinner ( Read more... )

 I went to a 21st dinner at the Chicago Rib Shack, I don't know if you've ever been but it's calorie hell there, I actually had tears in my eyes looking at the menu, luckily my bf said we would get some bits to share and he would eat most of if, no one would be able to know how much I had eaten. Then I purged a little after (I just had to, if you ( Read more... )

( A cut for a cut )

 Great, my scales were dicking me about. Apparently if I weigh in the corner of the room I've always kept me in they''ll give me 8 billion different weights. Anyother part of my room or any other part of the house it gives the same answer: 139.2lbs. 2.6 motherfucking pounds more than I was 5 GODDAMN  MINUTES AGO. And NO I haven't eaten or had water ( Read more... )