so here i am again, wired, awake not able to sleep and alone yet again. No one to talk to no one to listen to, nothing, not until tomorrow morning. I have no voice anyway i have lost it due to this bleedin cold! i hate colds they suck big time ( Read more... )

my lord this is so true!!!!!! it is so me!

i sleep to wake, and take my waking slow!!

Well as you may have guessed from the title i got the job, i mean it really wasn't that hard i rocked up and said a few words (hoping against hope i wouldn't say the wrong thing) and well i got it. Cheering i will be able to go the beach every weekday now after work or b4 whichever suits me as the job is near the beach ( Read more... )

OMG!!! i have just been surfing the net and i know i may be a bit late with this news but you know johnathan brandis off SeaQuest DSV well he committed suicide last year and i had no blody idea i used to think he was so hot, cute! i can't believe he is dead what a shock to the system. well i was just shoked plain old fashion shocked oh wells.. RIP ( Read more... )

well i haven't been upto much! i have been At my sister's house for a week, played with my nephews and nieces for a while that was fun, lifted my mood for a while i was feeling a bit blue but looking at my youngest nieces face how could you be blue with her there she is so gorgeous ( Read more... )

S i get this email from a friend of mine not really bitching about me more or less telling everyone her side to the fucking story and well what can i say nothing unusual about that is there??? i mean what else does she have to say it's all about her, her feelings us ditching her, us not ringing her, well what more do i have to say, don't be so ( Read more... )

so far i have kept a tip on my anger issues lately i mean i haven't gone off at anyone! which is fucking great for me. Trust me there was a few times i could have blown my top ( Read more... )

ok so i was a bit aggro last night, i'm feeling a bit better tonight. Not much going on b-sides the old trusty mood swings!! B-sides waking up at 10.30 and reading a book i have practically done nothing all day. I was meant to go see a friend but i wasn't feeling up to it, and didn't want to take my "moodiness" out on her ( Read more... )

well i just checked my email and my step mum i guess doesn't want to talk to me anymore, well you know what fuck her and her problems, im sorry i couldn't come visit her, it's not my problem anymore anyways. Fuck i wish people wouldn't expect so much out of me, it's so fucking draining. I mean i love woman, spend time with her, hung out with her ( Read more... )

i hate my temper i am so quick to anger lately for no apparent reason. If anyone does the slightest thing i take it personally and just wanna scream my head of, i don't think it's them. i mean my mom put too much coffee in the coffee maker and i wanted to rip her head of. what that about ( Read more... )