My jeans are loose

I feel fat

just the same the same the same

I went clubbing last night and I made out with my ooold ex:(:(:(:( BBBBAAAADDDD

I told Jacob while crying - I still love Jacob

I lvoe him

he loves me
I miss him
he misses me

I'm fucked

I think I'm dehydrated - it's almost 8 pm and I haven't had a single drop of liquid today - yesteday was the same ( Read more... )

So I met a guy and he's perfect but I don't know what to do. I mean I haven't been single for 17 months so it's hard to know what exactly to do and not to ( Read more... )

I'm fucked

I'm so sick and tired of this insomnia!! I have trouble sleeping in general but lately it's just been too much. I've hardly slept for 6 days now and I'm exhausted.. I try and try but I can't. I just got out of bed again after an attempt of sleeping ( Read more... )

UPDATE:

I went out last night and I danced the night away;) I had a blast...

I got 1,5 hrs of sleep and then I had to be in school from 8-12.30:( I wore huge black shades to cover up the signs from being drunk.. haha

Eaten today:
1 small wholewheat bun
1/2 piece of lasagne (no cheese, no cream)

can't eat more and it's 8pm so it's okay...

I miss Jacob bad ( Read more... )

So I've been to school for 9 hrs - I was in the lab and we were examining a liver from a RAT! Yuck haha

Eaten:

BF: 1 cookie
Lunch: 1/2 piece of wholewheat bread with some sort of low cal paté
snack: 1 carrot + 2 pieces of liquirice

Dinner will prob be an iced coffee with espresso

Nothing else- I'm in an okay mood I'm just so tired

Had a terrible night - I kept hiding my face down my pillow and cried and cried and cried. I cried for hours... I only got to sleep 2 hrs and then I woke up to go see my therapist which was nice. He could see I was so tired - my body is so tired - I have hardly slept for 3 days now..

Had an okay day - bought a shirt.

My parents have been here for ( Read more... )

Went to grouptherapy today.. I was so stressed! My pulse is usually 45 but today it was 88... that's alot for me ( Read more... )

LAST update from today ( Read more... )