so, life is ... so fucking weird. and i'm thinking that my brain has magic, cause (well almost) everything i wanted to happen happened   last weekend. and i can't fucking believe it. i cant even believe that tabitha kissed me, or did i kiss her, i dunno. but my heads a spinnin 3,000,000 RPMs and building. and i never thought i would be the kind of ( Read more... )

what's left ( Read more... )

(a narrative i'm working on... kind of)

She looked him right in the eyes. she did this alot and he knew that when she did it gave him away. Or rather, it made him give himself away. He swore to whoever that when people looked other people in the eyes their thoughts we're displayed like microscope slides put under magnifieng glasses. he didn't want ( Read more... )

so i says to myself
i says
be easy and free, cause that's me.

so i'm up at trixies and it's sunday night. I'm doing pretty good trying not to feel like a parasite needing a host, and then tabi is offering me colored pencils
and telling me not to be shy. and did she just brush against my leg on purpose that time? i'm pretty sure the last 3 times were ( Read more... )

i wish i understood body language better. maybe i do understand it perfectly and i'm just not confident enough about what i know, or think i know. i dunno...
lol anyways
i was up at trixies and i'm like writing in my book and everything and everytime i look up i notice this girl looking at me, but mabe she wasn't.

ther herald of birds singing outside!
it's funny, just hearing that sound makes everythign feel different. maybe i'm just bi polar, but i feel pretty great. like, my life is so crazy right now that no matter what happens i'm cool with that. i might be about to go to jail, lol. i owe the city of van buren 825$... isn't that stupid, and just for a few ( Read more... )

almost all neurosis. seriously, everything i do is to prevent me from breaking down. i fucked up somewhere, actually, i fucked up in a couple different spots. duddy, or patience and james, i need to talk to you guys about some serious shit,like getting out of this house. i can't afford to leave because i have exactly 37 cents right now, and the ( Read more... )

today i awoke to a chorus of chainsaws, looked out my window to see the street littered with fallen ash trees, sawdust flying through the air, more than twenty trees cut down on my block alone. wherefore? because of a small weavel who likes to bore into their bark and eat them from the inside out. each house on my street and in my comunity (east ( Read more... )

where is nepenthe ( Read more... )

this bed will be the death of me ( Read more... )