This is Tasha Beller.

I've been going through a lot of shit the past few weeks, haven't had time to update much. Nothing to update anyways, I'm still fat, I haven't lost any weight, no matter how little I eat or how much I exercise. It's draining, I don't make any progress. But the hopes will always be that someday, with determination, there won't be enough meat on me ( Read more... )

what, WHAT?! I go to bed, wake up in the morning and I gained 2 pounds BACK. Why, why, what the fuck. 107.5. Set back again. UGH, UGH ( Read more... )

I've just realized I've lost 4.5 pounds in 3 days. I'm so fucking happy.

ughh I'm so fucking happy right now. the day started off bad (funeral, then the dinner afterwards stuffing pasta and salad and other shit down), came home, tried to purge but nothing came up, so I ran 2.65 miles (more than last time), burned 400 calories and 121 fat calories (ahhhh) I'm thinking you burn one fat calorie per 3 regular calories. I ( Read more... )

,to be a visual boneyard
and feel jolts sent up through
impact, hot rain out of pores.
abbreviated breaths, open
throttle.
sickled slice in face, staring
at twigs wrapped in cellophane, delicate
and long.
"no food or beverages may be taken into these galleries."
her thick epidermis,
she knew better- nonindulgent
mucus membranes.

Girls! Girls! I am so so so so happy! alright, so I ate a clementine and two pieces of toast with butter on them (because I knew I was going to workout), and I just ran 2.3 miles, burned 320 calories, plus 100 fat calories. I burned it all off and then some, fat calories being burned are what leads to weight loss, so that really what I'm proud of, ( Read more... )

alright, I did okay today. got up and ate a clementine and drank a bottle of water, went to the mall and got a pair of jeans that I've been wanting forevvvver (citizens of humanity), and some make up from prescriptives. Went and rented Napoleon Dynamite, and Kill Bill, then came home. Made spinach and a piece of health nut toast with peanut butter ( Read more... )

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