Anyone else sometimes wonder how they got so messed up?

[anamiame]

Went out with some old friends last night, really good old friends the kind where your both so messed up it's not like your a freak or in competition, just comfortable to accept each other as you are

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[snailonvalium]

*hugs*
i sometimes feel like you-that if no-one is hurting me im not even worth that........its strange!i supose im so used to being hurt that when im not something must be wrong with me.
i wish that i could wake up "normal",but then again i probably wouldnt wake up in the place i am now,i know my life would be totally different.......
i wish it could happen though!
xxx

[madness606]

I've been having starnge dreams about "normal" lately.
Waking up in cold sweats.
Its scaring me.

[anamiame]

Strange that, one of the guys I was out with did the whole normal thing, even got married and had the very well paid job, ended up running away from it though. I guess I'm the same I crave normality, but whenever anything even starts to resemble it, i run away in a blind panic.

[palm_breeze_12]

Life was so much easier when I was 12 and I didn't have to worry about counting calories, how fat my ass is, or when the hell will I be a size 3... I didn't worry about anything, the image of myself was still in tact, and I wasn't obsessed over my weight. Then I woke up out of that dream. Nothing's normal anymore, nothing's the same... And I can't get that dream back no matter how much I try.

[_my_tourniquet]

*hugs*

I had a friend like that: where we could just talk to each other about anything because both of our families and lives are so messed up. We haven't spoken in a few weeks, though, and I'm beginning to think she's replaced me.

If I was never teased or alienated like I was in school, I'm sure this never would have happened, because I'd have nothing to base my negative self-image on.

[anamiame]

I'm sure they haven't replaced you, I hadn't seen my mate in over a year, yet as soon as we got back together it was like we had never been apart.

People never seem to think about the effects of what they say, if I ever find a time machine I will pull you back to school and then I can beat up all those bullies for you.

Big hug

[fastingfriend]

unfortunately, i think there is still a strong element of our own genetics or personality or something in there because i have been very lucky to not have had any really bad experiences and i still have a lot of the thoughts, feelings and perceptions in common with others. and there is something to be said as to why it is that some people can just let words roll right off them in school and we take it to the core. why do we care so much as to what other people think??