Ok i'm better. Things got upsetting. I'm making huge changes to my life, attitude, and overall self.

I feel sick. I hate myself. I don't deserve anything that i've tried to obtain. I should just go away forever.

Maybe i'm in the wrong business. I'm a fuck up, and can't do anything right. I'm not assertive, i'm not a pain in the ass, i always let oppurtunities slip through my fingers. I'm the total opposite of what you have to be in this world. Maybe this isn't for me. Maybe i'm not as pasionate as i thought i was. Maybe i just need to switch gears and ( Read more... )

Damn it. I was really looking forward to doing this with Mere. I'm really sad and angry that she can't go now. Fuck.

So we had our annual halloween party on saturday. It was fun. I unoffically won best costume. I went as jack the ripper. It looked really awesome. i even strapped a ruler to my leg so i could walk with a limp. I can't wait to see pics of it. Meredith looked hot. She was like a gothic doll. She looked way hot. My parents were pirates, but my dad ( Read more... )

Wow. Feels like i just got kicked in the stomach for no reason. But i guess what i think doesn't matter. Its what everybody else thinks.

Not that i normally do these types of things, but it was asked and i'm bored ( Read more... )

Don't play with fire kids. You do it too much, and you might get hurt. And hurt badly. Yup. I know i won't be doing that anymore ( Read more... )

Another sleepless night. I don't know what's wrong with me this week. I have been weird. I don't know why. I know something is bothering me, but i don't have a damn clue as to what it is. I guess i'm just stressed about everything. A few constants that run through my mind daily it seems. Call me selfish, but i'm kinda upset that there is a chance i ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. Everything that's wrong is wrong. My head hurts, my stomach hurts, my rls is acting up badly, and my psoriasis is driving me crazy. I've been dozing off all day on and off. It sucks. I feel so ugly. My psoriasis is starting to get worse now that we're slowly getting cooler days. I look really horrible today. My scalp and face are ( Read more... )