i am lying face down on a circular rug, in the middle of a wooden floor hallway at the top of a curved stairway in the grand entrance of a 2 million dollar home. the player piano recites its piano version of hotel california. i turn my head to rest on my right ear and stare at the stair railing ( Read more... )

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i was inspired on the ride home from work just now. i love getting off of work when it is still daylight. i mean i still prefer my closing shifts. but it's a nice change. i'm a day person. not morning, not night, day. like from 11am to 8pm are my favorite hours to be out and about enjoying the lighting, and hanging out. it reminds me of ditching ( Read more... )

im moving all my shit this weekend. as of this weekend my life as i know it will be completely different. moving away from imbritneyspears has got to be the most anxiety ridden decision i've made since i moved to oklahoma. i know it's probably the right choice. she's growing up, i'm not. she needs a clean quiet house. i'm not clean or quiet. plus we both could ( Read more... )

i don't have much to look forward to lately and that can cause some negative feelings. i feel like nothing is ever going to work out because well, i don't know why? i don't know why nothing seems to want to work out lately. i have hope though. i keep telling myself, be patient, even the wise cant see all ends. but in the meanwhile i've got a broken ( Read more... )

the last few weeks i have been in good spirits. i have felt strong, confident, content with my life and even hopeful for the future. then, i don't know why (actually i do know why but don't want to admit it) around midnight at the pisces party i felt like i couldn't breathe. like there wasn't enough oxygen in the air to sustain me. i moved around ( Read more... )

i had such a bad day at work today. i think i'm pmsing but i can't tell because i don't actually get a period due to depo. it felt like everyone was blaming and criticizing me for stuff that wasn't my fault. we have this stupid district manager visit coming up plus a POI.(a POI is a cleanliness checklist of the lab. i am the lab manager so i have ( Read more... )

hooray for rain and emergenge C when trying to sober up before having to get up for work at 8am.

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