While the last three months have been the happiest of all my life, consequentially the pain I feel now is crippling. I don't eat. I don't sleep. I don't care about anything but her. Breaking down has become commonplace and I only have a few more weeks left in me at this rate.

Nastassjia asked me how many girls I've had sex with today. I gave her an honest answer, and as I said it, I realized exactly how rediculously high of a number it is. I panicked thinking that she wouldn't want anything to do with me, but she said that I'm with her now, and that doesn't matter. She's teaching me how to be happy and have an ( Read more... )

I have a girlfriend, whose name is Nastassja. Being around her makes me feel like I've never been happy until now. I will be hanging around PDX a little longer than expected, due to her being unable to move with me yet. YET ( Read more... )

WELL ( Read more... )

Kyle drunk? since when do I fucking drink ( Read more... )

SO. Realizing that you are the most negative part of my life, I decided to let you know I didn't want you to be around any more ( Read more... )

Well I feel stupid. But don't worry, it was only my hopes and dreams you crushed so get could get your kicks. I can't even beleive I asked for an apology, it's just words to you because you don't give a damn about me. Another day.

Oh, me and my ideals. Sure we'll get an apartment together once you graduate. We'll both have college paid for and concentrate on making our lives for the future. Perhaps we'll stay up late and talk about stars and clouds. I bet we'll have the perfect jobs and the perfect lives, and all the lies and deciet going on right now won't mean one ( Read more... )

Good things. Work is going great, I have soo many $1's now. Whenever I go buy something people think I'm a male stripper; I take it as a compliment. I love my job, and receptionist girls.

ALSO! I'm joining the band "Nickel Arcade."
I'll post a link with music and show dates soon.

You're missing out on a great adventure when you're not

I think the whole reclusive, "I don't want to talk to anyone" thing that I have been doing is in need of a change. I'm tired of not having any friends other than Jimmy (not to say that hanging out with Jimmy isn't great, but he's started school and won't want to hang out with his loser older brother for too much longer), but I don't know where to ( Read more... )