weight: 148 ( I can't believe I actually lost a pound after everything I ate yesterday!! only 6 more lbs till I'm back at my pre-fuck up weight!)

so far today

glass of OJ: 110
apple: 80
cup o noodle: 290

total: 480

yikes! and I still have one more apple to eat (80) and dinner (150) which is going to put me at 710 all together...EWW!! at least its under ( Read more... )

I  really hope that I'm being paranoid, but I think I could be pregnant. Last time my boobs hurt really really badly and now they are kinda starting to ache...not to mention I'm tried....don't feel good....everything I was last time ( Read more... )

BAH!! I'm such a fuck up all my work last week gone!! and today isn't going much better 2 bowls of cereal (300 cals) and an english muffin (130) thats 430 freakin calories already!! STUPID STUPID STUPID!!! no more eating today....done....and no matter what Rob says at dinner tonight no more eating! When I'm down to 135 then I can go shopping, but ( Read more... )

 Last night: 146.5 lbs ( Read more... )

Well despite the horrible weight gain christmas was nice! all anyone did was tell me how skinny I had gotten and that I looked good so that was nice....even though one of my friends said I've gotten tooo skinny and need to gain like 5 lbs which is completely not true!! but he's fat and just wants other people to be fat with him so bah on him! I'm ( Read more... )

Coming in at a gianormous 146 this morning I am restricting to 200 cals for the day -yogurt (110) and peaches (80) - combine that with exercise and "I'm not feeling well "excuse to my bf about dinner...I should be fine. Under no circumstance can I b/p today! I won't do it! I will be strong!

 well this weekend was a diaster! so on Saturday I was down to 144 (3 lbs overnight woo hoo) but I ended up eating "normal" while my bf was home and now I'm back to 146.5....I'm soo stupid! I should have had better willpower but nooo! on the other hand on Sunday Rob was all like "are you eating cause you are getting skinny" which made me happy...so ( Read more... )

 cw: 147.5 lbs

2.5 lbs from where I wanted to be, but I'm just stoked that I made some progress....as small as it is. Now hopefully I won't screw it all up this weekend with visiting friends and partying. Keep your fingers crossed.

weight: 150 lbs.

slowly but surely...I just need to lose 5 more lbs by the 17th and I'll be back on track. kinda.

AM weight: 151.5 lbs (loss of 1.5 lbs from last night)

food today:
*rice cake - 45 cals
*yogurt- 110 cals

total: 155 cals

doing good....now I just have to keep it that way!!

*thinking thin*