So I'm up .5 lbs because I decided it would be ok to binge on halloween candy since boyfriend was...bad bad bad! I will do better today!

*plan*
lunch: grilled cheese - 105 cals
dinner: grilled cheese - 105 cals
snack: jello - 40 cals

Total: 250

I think I can live with that...I just need to stick with it...no more binging!!

 weight: 149.5

but I got my hydroxycut today!! can't wait to see if there are results tomorrow.

todays intake
coffee: 80 cals
3 enviga: 15 cals
english muffin: 130 cals
dinner: 187.5 cals

total: 412.5 cals

 well today is a lost cause....but tomorrow....tomorrow is a new day....bring me closer to what I the person I should be!

Tuesday
1 cup chicken and rice: 375 cals
total: 375 cals

Wednesday
salad: 187.5 cals
      1 cup lettuce: 7.5 cals
      6 croutons: 30
      2/3 cup chicken: 110 cals
      1 tbsp. dressing: 40 cals
total: 187.5 cals

Thursday
1/4 cup ( Read more... )

weight: 148

needless to say yesterday was awful! I was at 400 cals and going to stop, but definately did not handfuls of jerky (probably around like 900 cals), 8 or 9 coors light (1000 cals), 2 shots of tequila (200 cals), 2 cookies (170 cals), grilled chicken salad and garlic toast (600 cals)

thats 3270 cals

no wonder I'm up 2.5 lbs!!! god I'm a ( Read more... )

I've binged AGAIN! so far today(and keep in mind its only 1:21 pm):

3 enviga: 15 cals
18 croutons: 90
egg:30
english muffin: 65
2 cookies: 170

total: 370

that was almost my goal for the whole day!! damn damn damn! and my bf just called and he wants to go to lunch in the 45 mintues! bah!! maybe I'll just get a dinner salad with no dressing...that will be ( Read more... )

am weight: 145.5

thats up .5 from yesterday!! I'm freakin out, but I can fix this. I am going to come up with a solution...right now. 
So I just took a green tea pill and a duriex and at 3:30-4pm I will take another green tea pill and a duriex. As for food....I don't know yet...I'm debating about breakfast....

yeah I think I'll go ahead and have some ( Read more... )

 so here I am laying in bed and I can't sleep! all I can do this think about what a fatass I am! I was doing soo good....feeling great and then bam 3 cookies and a bunch of wheat thins and cream cheese later ( Read more... )

So this is me as of today at 145 lbs.


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so yesterday I was 150.5 and this morning I was 148....2 lbs from my goal of being 146 on Friday. Yesterday I had 3 envigas (15 cals), coffee (80 cals) and 3 bites of dinner (50 cals) I really shouldn't have eaten since I am fasting, but it did keep Rob from yelling at me more....so 50 cals for peace in the house...worth it...I guess ( Read more... )

All I have to say is thank goodness its monday....a fresh start! The weekend is over...and I'm back to restricting!  I have got to lose 15 lbs before St. Pattys day....and thats not going to happen if I keep eating. no more food!! this week I'm going to restrict to under 500 cals with 2 apples everyday...which leaves 340 cals to do what I wish with ( Read more... )