This is a post from facebook from December 24th last year ( Read more... )

Feeling very alone and scared tonight. I can see a way to have everything I want, but I may have to give up everything I have. I don't know if I'm brave enough for this.

Sometimes I forget for whole hours now. But when I remember, a burning pain sears my soul. And I am reminded, again, that you took part of my soul with you. I just thank the gods that I keep part of yours with me.

I want to be someone that my thirteen-year-old self would look at in awe and say, "Wow, I never thought you would do that."

I'm so happy, I could cry--literally. I am giddy and overwhelmed with emotion. I have realized that I have been approaching my life, well, just wrong. Damn society. Left to my own devices, without the "this is what you SHOULD be doing" interference of society, I think I would have figured it out much sooner ( Read more... )

I miss the person I used to be.

I think my emotions may be leveling out a little now. I can't wrap my mind around what's happening with Daddy. I guess the way I'm dealing with it is to not think about it too much. I just have faith that the cancer has not spread and that the doctors will be able to get it all with surgery ( Read more... )

Tonight, as I was leaving Mama and Daddy's, my bother said to me, "Merry Christmas." I just looked out toward my house, saw the Christmas tree twinkling in the window, and thought, "Yeah, right, Merry Christmas." I love Christmas, but there is just something so sad about going home on Christmas Eve knowing that so many (including your baby ( Read more... )

Tonight at work, I found it difficult to hold back the tears. Meredith was sitting in a chair looking so cute in a polka-dotted shirt, and Drew was trying to feel the baby move. It was really a sweet scene, Drew with his hand over Meredith’s round belly. Until tonight, I had handled Kendra’s and Meredith’s pregnancies fine-never even a pang of ( Read more... )

NKOTB. OMG. LOL.