For the record, I'm frustrated and confused and amused and a little bit sad all at the same time and as a result of the combination of many different factors.

Fuck everything. I'm going to go take my frustration out on my abdominal area.

Finished a draft. Celebrated with champagne.

10 scenes left to write.

I don't know how to feel about this.

This is me procrastinating and also just sharing something that to some might seem like complete bullshit and to others might be a revelation. I don't know what I think about it yet ( Read more... )

And I still can't get that damn voicemail out of my head. I really affected me. Correction: it's really affecting me. I listen to it at least once a day. I need to delete it, but I can't because it could be useful. Goddamnit goddamnit.

So I just realized this will be my first Valentine's Day alone since freshman year of high school. Great. It's just another way freshman year at MIT feels exactly the same (and in many ways, worse) than freshman year at Spring Valley ( Read more... )

I can be so unbelievably petty sometimes.

In other news, things might be getting better for me! They might actually start to go my way for once.

I guess it's time to catch up! But this will be brief ( Read more... )

So I'm basically back at square 1 in many respects. And today, I may have made a major realization that is quite possibly going to cause me a lot of pain in the nearish future. Exciting.

We spent 24 straight hours together yesterday. I'm going to stop over-thinking this whole thing right... now. I'm just really happy and I guess I'm going to try to enjoy it for as long as it lasts (even though there is a chance he could be totally playing me). Whatever ( Read more... )