everything was going fine that night.
my friends teamed up against me on drinking games, that was fine.
i wanted more more more
my smile stretched from ear to ear.

then you came home.
i confessed i still loved you, out on the porch smoking a cigarette together.
you said you didnt know what you wanted, wanted to be alone.
everything else told a different ( Read more... )

Do I stress you out?
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say "how appropriate".

I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see,
But I can't help it.

There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler.
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I ( Read more... )

i miss my old life kinda. i am listening to my old voice recorder that i somehow got at a clearance at target last year for thirteeen dollars. i didnt have any money, especially for that type of shit. but i came with a tape and free batteries, which havent run out, even after all this time, which is surprising. i miss my old life and i have no one ( Read more... )

and this thing that my own body has produced,
is actually trying to kill me.

waiting on the opinions of people who matter

p p p ppanic

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confusion never stops
closing walls & ticking clocks

i want so badly to have my life circumstances match the oppresiveness i feel internally.

what would it be like ( Read more... )