wow it's been a while actually.. i remember when i used to write in this thing every day... what happened to that?? i dont know.. so wow.. we sucked ass (sorry) in state this year.. lost in the first round, we so could have won.. but on a good note i get to play sand again! i'm excited about that... played in a tourney today with one of my bros.. ( Read more... )

this sucks everything sucks.. i dont know y.. for the most part i'm good if this makes sense?? i've given up on girls.. completely it's pointless to ever get the one i truly want.. it's never going to happen.. and i really dont think i can get the one i'm fallin for now.. i dont think she has any clue that i like her.. and it sucks cause i'm too ( Read more... )

i have nothing to say.. but to every one i know and that is close to me i'm sorry.. for everything i have done.. and will do in the future.. just know i mean it.. goodnight ( Read more... )

so it seems like i've forgotten how to play volleyball.. or maybe i just have other things on my mind.. but what could they be?? anyone.. anyone?? i'm not findin it.. girls?? no not so much.. not talkin to any girls at the moment.. some i would like to talk to.. but i'm not.. so that's not it.. friends?? no, they're still there and we're still good ( Read more... )

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what is the purpose of life?? honestly?? we're here to find so many great things in this world and then it's ripped away from us when we leave this place.. how do we know it's going to stay with us?? life is like women.. they're here and u find so many great things in them.. but then out of no where u find it's all an illusion and that it's gone.. ( Read more... )

i know i've said this b 4... but i'm done.. completely done.. with everything.. i'm sick of sitting here thinking way too much and it not leading to anywhere but depression.. it sux.. i dont want it anymore so i'm done.. it does nothing but eat me up inside and i hate it.. no more.. on a lighter note.. we beat rincon yesterday!!! i was in the paper ( Read more... )

i'm sick of the same old shit over and over.. i cant get rid of it.. i find someone i like and that goes to shit because that's just how it works with me.. because for some reason i can never have the ones i truly want.. the more i get to know the more i feel.. and that's not too good.. that's all that's been goin down, i've been dyin inside ( Read more... )

i keep running thoughts over in my mind.. even tho it's over and there's nothing i can do i cant let go of this feeling and i dont know y.. it's with me from the morning i wake up until i fall asleep.. it feels like its never going to leave.. i feel so lost.. like i have no purpose.. like i'm here for nothing.. i feel like a little kid lookin for ( Read more... )

i dont like being alone anymore.. i dont like the person i have become.. when i'm with my friends i am me.. the way they usually see me.. when i'm alone.. i'm left to think and die in my thoughts.. my happiness fades away and it doesnt return.... i look in the mirror and i dont want to see who that is, because it's not me.. i dont know who i am ( Read more... )