Hello! i haven't written in here for a long time, so wanted to say wazzup and goodbye!

xoxo

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 I scare myself too much...i'm afraid i'll do something stupid. Lately i get mad so easily and i enjoy throwing things and punching things. I like to hear things break. It's like some crazy mood swing, and no, i'm not pmsing either :)    But i swear, the littlest things make me throw a fit, it's kinda scary and weird cause things never use to ( Read more... )

This is how i feel sometimes:

"it's so nice sitting very still, in a room where no one else can feel.
the pain that breaks my heart each day, i'm not ok.
sunlight shining thru my window, lets me know that i'm still alive
why did i ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Well i should've known that you were a killer.
But now i'm dead.

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Days have been slow and painful. I've been depressed all week, it's just terrible. My b-day was on the 5th, bbut it sucked so bad. I got in this big fight and it hurt me all kinds, i got a grudge now. Then, my friend John has been pissing me off so much. He keeps whining about how "if i committed suicide no one would care" god, he's so fuckin ( Read more... )

 i get to go to fillmore for winter break! i might leave friday, if i can get my parents to lemme ditch so i can make it to that Haste the Day concert! i'm kinda in deep shit tho for my grades, and the fact that they don't trust me anymore. Oh well, could b worse...... but i can't wait to see my buddies! Later days

I've been very emotional lately, things just haven't been going my way. but today was different, it waas better i guess you could say. I saw Trevor again since the football game ! what a surprise! He's a senior, i think he likes me too much tho. I saw him at the bus stop and he waited with me till my bus came. He's sweet and funny but he likes me ( Read more... )

 Today i went to the football game with Jose QUervo, mikey and pino. It's was the playoffs and we won, whoo. But we didn't even watch the game. We were all sitting on the grass, i got some great ass massages. John came and more and more ppl came. These two seniors hanged out with us the whole time, Trevor and John they were nice, pretty funny. ( Read more... )