...til i got a glimpse of life without you...
little did i know how deep these roots had grown...
...til i felt the earthquake here without you...

why do i feel so lost and like a part of me has flown away??

i'm sad. i'm sorry. that's all. i'm just sad and sorry. why can't i make decisions. why do the ones i try to make always make me sad. i hate this...

I never realized that the months following graduation would be so emotionally draining. I have dreams all the time that I am moving back into the dorm with all of my good friends. I wake-up, and then I am disappointed because I've woken-up. I miss all of my friends so much it hurts ( Read more... )

where the hell is Destiny ( Read more... )

This is an insane period in my life. There is such a huge leap from college to "real" world that is certainly taking place. I am excited about transitioning, because I know the Lord only gets better, but it is also a forced burial of my past. College has been amazing. If there is one thing I would recommend to anyone, it would be to move away from ( Read more... )

guess who got a job at Lanier Middle School teaching 7th grade Language Arts?

I have a job interview...two job interviews...what the heck. please pray for my insanity and job opps. for God to direct me...for me to listen to God's directions ( Read more... )

I am depressed right now. i am mad at God...for a lot of things. my life is not how i planned it, and quite frankly i am disappointed. i imagined this place of sweet fellowship with Him and His people like 24/7, and it's just not happening. i am selfish, and i hate myself for it, making me more selfish. how the heck do i overrun this ridiculous ( Read more... )

today i decided to dress like a teacher-hippie, so i did. I wore snadels with beads all over them, my hair pulled with a beady headband, kakis, a brown lacy shirt underneath a brown and flowery, flowy type shirt. It was great. I got to school and this one kid told me i looked like cleopatra. i laughed. everyone asked me why i was a hippie. i said ( Read more... )

Today I decided that the things I want in life are things I'm usually unwilling to work hard towards. I think I've always known that, but now I'm just experiencing it. AkA, student teaching is crazy difficult. It is so rewarding, but I went to bed at 8:30 one night last week due to severe exhaustion and fatigue. My mind is always going over ( Read more... )