I have a blue notebook i was given to write in...this is what i wrote ifyou want to know ( Read more... )

If you are reading this then you already know where i am, Vista Del Mar Hospital.  I want to get better and i am so scared of this place.  I dont know what to expect.  I want more than anything to get better and to stop hurting.  I am sorry all of you got drug into this.  If you want to learn more about where i am here is the website.  I dont know ( Read more... )

I cant force myslf to do this anymore. its so lame i have to make myself wake up make myself breath make myself go to school. I need to figure it out. I cant do it anymore. I am sick of this. I want to be normal again. Screw all this. I sleep now why cant i go back to normal. I am sick of it. I try so hard and yet no matter how hard i try ( Read more... )

Yeah so i dont understand anymore....fuck it. I am trying so hard to deal with all the shit that goes on in my head. I do what i can. I mean to me everyone seems to spend thier time being all pissed off and worriing about people. Yeah worrying about people is a weekness. I know. I care to much for so many people. Everyone who reads this knows ( Read more... )

Sometimes i look at the bottle....and i want to take them all just to end it all.......

is it really worth it anymore

i love you josh

"Welcome To My Life"- Simple Plan ( Read more... )

Updated for kelly.....

parents suck....

i hate this...

i like polo

ok well yeah this should speak for its self.......


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I dont know what to do anymore....i am so l....o.......s.....t

Man i want school to start then i dont have so much time on my hands to think.  i need school to start.

I am so awkward with my friends now.....why? God i just want things to go back to normal.

Jen i love you..... i want to go to massaucets and marry you.  I need you in my life.

Lindsey ( Read more... )

thank you lindsey i love you