I feel like I've been going full speed since 8:30 yesterday morning, which could be considered true if it weren't for the fact that I got a decent amount of sleep in between. What I'm trying to say is that I don't remember a dull moment these past two days - I like it that way. I could live like that: drive and get things done in the day, and play ( Read more... )

I wish I had someone to give me lectures and set me straight; neutral ground that could tell me the things I need to concentrate on and the decisions that would prove the best to make. I'm so distracted. I'd love to have like, a 'life-filing' system. I wish I had the patience to make the lists that he did. Lay it all out. I actually think I'd sleep ( Read more... )

...and now my neck hurts ( Read more... )

I'm honestly thinking about thinking about maybe going to 'see someone'; find out why I'm so fucking numb, stubborn, faceless, and bored. Figure out why I leave get-togethers so early because things lose their luster so fast with me. I don't know - Is it Dad? Is it Gramma? Is it just being here still? Is it the fact that I'm not seeing three- ( Read more... )

For some reason I've been angry with politicians, and all these stories of how poor a job the office is doing, and all these things they can't tell us. Not that I'm the most politically inclined guy - I hardly listen at all - but they go out of their ways to 'protect us' from the truth when, to me, it seems like they just hate press conferences ( Read more... )

I should be packing (not to mention cashing a check and dropping a car off), but I'm here, writing a song or two and updating an online journal. Oh, what I've become ( Read more... )

Why the fuck do I bother? I feel so...apart right now.

I tried recording today. I use the word 'try' because I wasn't what one would call 'absolutely-successful' about it. Good news is I finally got down to setting up a system to getting the 'studio' set-up and my thoughts sorted - it includes playing 'I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning' for inspiration and lighting the good ol' 'Baked Apple Pie' candle for ( Read more... )

So, I thought about venting and decided against it...

Homework actually looks more appealing.
How strange is that?

None of these updates really say anything, huh?
I think I just get sick of looking at the same entry for so long.

...and, consequently, frustrated.

I want to win the lottery. Bad.