to be able to confide in a friend. thanks jayson. :)

please pray tonight for my dad. they said if he went in the hospital one more time, he would get put on a pacemaker. he went in today and they put a tube in his stomach. thanks.

i left my usb cord at katy's AGAIN. arg. today i was told to go to mumbai, india. my step-cousin jennifer took a business trip there and said it changed her life. i barely know jennifer but for some reason i started spilling out some of my hopes and dreams to her at courtney's baby shower. i told her that i wanted to see the whole world. i feel ( Read more... )

today was journalism day at san jac. same uselessness as last year. then i took suhey and her sister home. they live very far away. but i got $10 to spend on something nice for myself. hell yeah. katy said the 3 minutes were not even that great. ;) tonight i have the youth rally at the uptight church. god forbid there be any drums. but at least i ( Read more... )

i'm not going to lie. my stomach has been hurting but i decided yesterday i didn't want to go to school today.. why is that? i have no idea. with my sociology grade depending on my project due today, i am watching mrs. doubtfire. it reminds me of my sister. so i will sit and watch and smile. :)

sometimes i feel claustrophobic in my own skin. lately (and by lately i mean the past few months), i sit and think of how it would be, to be somebody else, somewhere else. i hate sounding all "teen angsty" but it's just how things are. i've fallen into a routine and it's getting old. but it seems as if every single day is the same but not. the only ( Read more... )

yet again, i was wrong about someone. it's terribly unfortunate. i'm actually going to write what i'm feeling because i see no point in hiding. i thought Joe was different. i thought he wouldn't want to hurt me. that's my bad. am i really that unbearable? i'm not sad... that's not the word. i'm disappointed. not even in him, but in me. i wanted to ( Read more... )

I woke up early this morning around 4 a.m ( Read more... )

i hate how i always put something like that as my subject line, but it's always true and well... i'm not very original. anyways... summer is hitting an end and it's somewhat of a sour note. after having my teeth pulled, my face hurts and these past few months reflect only regret. i know, i know, i'm young and i'm allowed my screwups but i feel so ( Read more... )

no one else, apparently.